can i painlessly cut off
my tongue so i can no
longer speak to those
i love. only without
pain, though, because
i have already abused
my skin and my throat
too much these past 3
years. but won’t you
just be a dear and kiss
my forehead, make my
bed because, frankly,
i cannot even dress
myself without staring
at what i am and yelling
out in misery. i am such
a disgrace, such a waste,
i just don’t know if i can
deal with the antagonising
attributes you bring into
my life so tonight i shall
dive into white bed sheets
and dream of jack as i have
these past three days.

(had to withdraw myself
from school one day
because i could not breathe
as all i did was think of him).

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